Lately I have been having a lot of bad dreams and I have no idea why. Well, maybe I will after I write the latest ones down and try to analyze them. Here goes.
In the first one, I was asleep, staying at my boyfriend's brother's house. The brother came home and I could hear him out in the living room with his friends. He then announced to his friends that he was going to do something to annoy me - so he came in my room, turned on the light, and mooned me. In my dream, I became really angry and my temper flared up. I So I went out to the living room and told him off for being such a jerkface. I wasn't wearing my glasses though, so I couldn't really see him to yell at him, which just made me angrier.
Analysis: The mooning part is actually funny and when I woke up I smiled about that, because that is something he would actually do. Then, I went to the living room to tell him about my dream because I wanted him to know that he found a way to annoy me even while I slept. The scary part, however, was the angry part. I have a really terrible temper that, although it doesn't flare up that often, is really scary when it happens. My temper is one thing that I absolutely hate about me because it causes me to do horrible things I would never do otherwise - like punching someone so hard they were knocked over or throwing glass bottles in the direction they came from and not thinking about the consequences of them hitting the cars or windows and then leaving really nasty voicemails to the office about said glass in complex. Although those jerks who put the glass there totally deserve to have their cars ruined since ruining cars was a consequence of their previous actions that no one ever rectified. Anyway. So I guess this dream was about my temper and how much I hate not being able to control it when it does flare up.
In the second one, I was sitting in a circle of people who were trying to come up with a game. The guy next to me suggested a game where you make a rhythm with your hands and pass it on to the next person, who has to repeat it, then make up a quick rap song and pass it on. He started it and tried to pass it to me but I told him I didn't want to play because I am not good at thinking up rap songs off the top of my head. He got kind of annoyed at me but passed it the other way. Then he grabbed my hand and started to squeeze it. To everyone else, it just looked like he was holding my hand, but it felt like he wanted to break it. He then dug his elbow into my thigh, right at the crease where your thigh meets your torso and I knew he was trying to hurt me. I tried to call out for someone to help me, but they couldn't hear me and when I did, he just started trying to hurt me more. Then I woke up.
Analysis: (smaller scale) I am afraid of guys trying to physically hurt, or people in general forcing me to do something I don't want to. I have never been in, nor am I currently in, an abusive relationship, so there is no reality for this dream. Maybe I just am worried that one day it will happen. (larger scale) This dream is probably about me being afraid of a lack of control as well. And possibly rap music. I could really have used my temper in this dream though - it would have helped me fight back and I could have taken that guy down to china town. Hi ya!
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